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What Infertility Has Taught Us About Marriage

Thursday, June 11, 2015 Posted in Personal 
On July 17, 2010, I had the distinct joy of photographing Jason and Katie as they vowed to love each other through sickness and health. It was the perfect Pennsylvania wedding day, full of laughter, love, and deep emotion. But, little did Katie and Jason know that five years later they would receive news that would change the perceived course of their lives. This is an essay Jason wrote to help those who receive the same devastating news that they received last week. Please leave a comment, or a word of support to encourage my friends through this difficult season of their lives. Thank you.
~Ginny


What Infertility Has Taught Us About Marriage


The other day my wife, Katie, and I received a bit of news. Not good or bad news – just news – we were told that after 6 months and seemingly endless testing we cannot have kids. Of course this news is unwanted and certainly not the desired news one would want to hear from a doctor but given the past six months, the news was not unexpected. However, despite the tears – yes we both cried – the heartache, the typical questions one would ask, questions such as: why us? and how is this fair?, this experience is more about us succeeding as a couple and allowing us to fully understand the meaning of marriage than anything else.

This past January, after about a year of trying, Katie and I decided to start the process of speaking with different doctors about why we were having pregnancy issues. We started with an OBGYN in our hometown and then we were referred to a “Conception Specialist” (my term), as well as other doctors. We wanted to find answers but there was always another test which only exacerbated our feeling of being in limbo. It seemed that no matter the number of tests we took the picture was not clear enough to give us a definitive answer.

After receiving the first round of test results we immediately knew the odds were not in our favor. We were shocked, upset, scared, and confused, we had long conversations that played out different “what-if’ scenarios, one of which was about our marriage.

“Would our inability to have kids be the cause of us divorcing?” My wife, immediately responded, “If that was the case the vows we said on our wedding day, in front of everyone, would be a sham. We married each other because we love one another and want to be with each other – not based on the ability of whether or not we could procreate.” She nailed it and though I am not religious the vows said on wedding days are about a couple – two people coming together – going from an “I” and a “me” to form an “us” and a ‘we.”

Our situation has taught us other lessons, like focusing on what we have rather than what we do not. For whatever reason it is human nature to focus on the latter – what we do not have or wished we had. This in no way should negate ambition but what Katie and I have learned is that focusing on what we do not, or cannot, have will only cause us to lead unfulfilled lives. Instead we have tried to remain focused on everything that we do have – our health, our families, our friends, good times, laughter, shared experiences, and, most importantly, each other.

As a couple we had the hardest time dealing with the feelings of loneliness and isolation that accompany pregnancy complications. We, like many, when faced with hardships surround ourselves with our most cherished loved ones, our families and friends. However the personal nature of fertility can cause a couple to be reclusive and cause them to stop leaning on those who support them the most. For the most part we tried to be as open as we could be, or wanted to be, with our family and our closest friends. When we did talk to our family and friends about what we were going through and feeling our pain was not resolved but these conversations reinforced our support system.

Another aspect that has caused me to really think about is the expected nature of pregnancy for primarily females but also married couples. Yes, we have been together for 12 years, and will be married for 5 in July but even before we started down this long road we are often asked questions like, “when are you all going to have a kid,” or “when are you all gonna get one of those” (asker points to a baby). Deep down we know these questions are not meant to be invasive and are asked because people think we will be good parents but often those who ask these questions forget the personal nature of the question and are subconsciously / consciously operating on the assumption that parenting is the only life arch for a married couple and is the expectation for females; in both cases the assumptions and expectations are false.

As for right now, the results and news is far too new and raw to make any decision about other options. There will be plenty of time to have these discussions and, just as we would have if we could have kids, we will navigate this new path together. Certainly it will take some time but we know this situation will prove to only make us stronger as a couple. This proof was never more evident than when the doctor asked us, “What is your plan B?” and I replied, “Doc, our plan B has always been plan A, to love each other unconditionally. So there really isn’t a need for a plan B.” - Written by Jason Faulkner





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  1. Scarlett Lillian Jun 11th, 2015 11:09PM

    I'm so glad you shared this on your blog Ginny! Infertility is a devastating thing 1 in 8 couples go through and needs more awareness so people less alone and isolated. I just blogged about it on my own blog on Monday sharing our struggles as well. To Jason and his bride, if you ever need someone to connect with, please know my husband and I are walking the same journey and would love to be a hand holder for you guys! We are just an email away! :-)

  2. Rae Knox Jun 11th, 2015 11:06PM

    Try acupuncture. Classical Chinese. Get a good one. My acupuncturist has had lots of success and has many "accu" babies. Most people go to her as a last resort instead of first - which is typical. Just wanted to share. Blessings to both of you.

  3. Jody Grah Jun 11th, 2015 10:33PM

    After actually being able to get pregnant, and then losing each and every one of our first three pregnancies, we understand the feelings of devastation of possibly never being able to have our own kids. All I know is I serve a big God and he can do far more than we ever could ask or imagine. We have one precious son and a daughter on the way. As the lord brings you both to mind, you will be in my prayers. Big hugs. Thanks for sharing and being open.

  4. Mary Lindsey Blanton Jun 11th, 2015 11:27AM

    Praying for you as you walk through this time. Telling your story will help so many others not feel alone. Lean on each other. Hard times in marriage can be one area to see your love for one another flourish. God is right there with you, offering comfort. Remember that He wants to guide you through this. Even after losing a pregnancy at 21 weeks, I can still say God is so so good. A broken world caused our pain, but a loving God wants to heal us. Your marriage & commitment to one another is beautiful. You will continue to be on my heart.

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A Life Well Lived | A Tribute to Davy Crockett

Tuesday, September 2, 2014 Posted in Portraits | Personal 

As I was preparing this blog post, I received a tragic call telling me that one of my friends passed away this morning. His name was Davy Crockett (yes....just like the American folk hero we grew up singing about), and it is only fitting to honor is life with this post. Davy was healthy, vibrate, adventurous, and one of the most beautiful souls you could ever have the pleasure of encountering. His passing is sudden and tragic, and my heart goes out to his bride of 1 year, Charlotte. Though my heart is broken from this news, my hope is in God, and I believe I will see him again someday. But for now, I would like to dedicate this post, and these images to my friend, Davy Crockett.

I grew up thinking that Davy was family; he was always at our family gatherings, and I had no reason to think otherwise. He's been at every Christmas Eve that I can remember. Gosh...I can vividly remember those Christmas Eve's in the late 80s- Davy in his Christmas sweaters, walking in with his 3 inch binder filled with Vineyard worship music, and that curly blond surfer haircut that was within 1-inch of being considered a mullet. Before I was allowed to open my presents, we would sing Happy Birthday to Jesus, and then Davy would lead us in worship.

It wasn't until my senior year of high school that I developed my own relationship with Davy. My brother, Wes, moved into his Wrightsville Beach home, which was the perfect excuse for me and my friends to visit often. Every Sunday night, we would arrive at Davy's, flooding his living room floor with teenage bodies, and keeping him up through all the hours of the night. Davy never once asked us to keep it down, he delighted in our youthfulness, and joined in the fun. Throughout the next 3 years, from Memorial Day through Labor Day, we stayed at Davy's. During this period of my life, Davy and I would have sunset chats beside Johnny Mercer pier. He encouraged me to pursue my dream of photography, and he inspired me by his life of adventure. Just a couple of weeks ago, Davy was deep sea diving with his wife, yet again inspiring me by his underwater photography and a life well lived.

The reason why I find it appropriate to tie Davy's story with the images below is that it has been 8 years since our entire family had our pictures taken. Those pictures, all edited in B&W, were taken at the beach by Davy Crockett. They hang proudly on our walls. As I was editing the pictures below, I had not yet heard the tragic news about Davy, but I felt in my heart to edit all of the images in B&W. Now, as I browse through them, I can see Davy honored in each and every one of them.

Cheers to you, my friend...I can't wait to adventure with you in heaven.
~Ginny


The images below are of 7 little humans that have my heart. These are 7 out of 8 of my nieces and nephews who are my delight.






















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  1. Janine Sep 4th, 2014 6:01PM

    So sorry for your loss, Ginny! These are gorgeous photos! I know your dear friend is living well up above. Love you! - Janine & Matthew

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Rome | Italy Photography Adventure

Friday, March 28, 2014 Posted in Personal 
Today is our last day in Rome, and it's the first sunny day since Tuscany (nearly 7 days ago). It’s bitter-sweet, really. I've really come to love this country, and I feel this trip has been life changing. What I’ve loved the most is the Italian culture. Everything is much different than the States. As I’ve walked through every Italian city, I’ve noticed that everyone is more social. Friends are walking and talking; locals are having passionate conversations with shop owners; dinners are long, and full of expressive hand gestures. I haven’t once seen an Italian on an iPhone, tuned into their own world. I also love that art is precious and valued. It’s a different world here, and I hope I take what I’ve observed/loved home with me. Thank you for following my adventure. If you are planning your own Italian adventure, I would suggest picking up Rick Steve’s book. He has been a great help to us.
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